It was starting of 6th semester of my engineering. If I talk about Vina, nothing interesting happened in 5th semester, I was almost at the same place in her heart.
Our chatting on Whatsapp was going on. We both were becoming addictive of each other as I thought. :D Till date, I was not able to figure out what exactly she thinks about me. She was totally a confusing puzzle for me.
I tried to figure out her feelings for me many times, but every time she was one step ahead than me. After knowing that I'm checking her reaction on something somewhere everytime, she used to say me, "Yeah do it again and again. Do Ph.D. on me, please. :P" , it was a taunt or an invitation, I never understood.
My sixth semester was going not so well with the absence of her ducky voice, which was a rare thing for me. Until 6th semester, I rarely got a chance to talk to her. Also, I didn't call her. Actually I tried to call her in the 4th semester, but she didn't pick up and after that time, my extremely high self-respect never allowed me to do it again.
It happens with me always, when I love something very deeply, whatever it is, my wish or any person, it becomes hard for me to leave that thing out of my every second thought. Vina was no exception. But my positive attitude always helped me a lot to move further, maybe some more time, maybe something better. :)
Everything was going well and one day, our 5th semester's result announced by our respected university RGPV and this event unexpectedly fuelled my love scene. I was at home that time.
I was all cleared means passed the exam. And she got a backlog means fail in one subject.
It was hard to accept but It was true. Because she was really a studious and talented girl, but RGPV was more talented, I think.
Whatever happened, I should feel bad for her, but I wasn't. I was waiting for a day from a long time where I could get a topic so that I could call her and hear her voice. And ultimately I was in confusion, should I call her with fake sympathy?
Seriously, I felt bad. But I had to motivate her too, so I called her but she didn't receive my call. After a long walk together on Whatsapp, she was still not picking up my call even when she needed a helping hand.
I was sitting on the terrace. I realized that I'm hating everything in the world. Chattering of birds which was peaceful for me had become a thing of the past. I passed the 5th semester with a good percentile, but I realized I failed in the exam of life.
But this was not the end. I got her call just after 5 minutes. And I thought, I overreacted.
(sound of sobbing)
She was crying, I said 'hello'.
"hello.", she started crying more.
"hey, what are you doing? crying like kids."
"Why this happened with me only?" (sobbing continuously)
"It is not happened with you only. Many others are there who have got a backlog in TOC." TOC was the subject in which she got the backlog.
"I did a lot of study for this subject then how could they declare me as fail." (sobbing)
"It is RGPV where anything could happen. We have done our best and results are never in our hands. Also, we have an option, we could apply for revaluation too."
I talked with her for more than 45 minutes that day. I told her two inspirational stories to motivate her. She stopped crying, but I became emotional for her.
When I think about my life, my fortune, my luck, I can't stop smiling. Because I didn't get anything easily.
This was my first time I talked with her on the phone, but instead of talking something about my love for her, instead of expressing my feelings for her, I was motivating her to get up.
Again I realized that whatever happens with me is nothing less than the best that could happen. I'm saying this because I got a chance to be a shoulder for her. Is there any other better way to express love?
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