Love Nowhere (21)

All the final years students from all the engineering branches were targetting the upcoming TCS campus to get a job in TCS. It was known that TCS is the only company which recruits most number of the students. So, everyone was dreaming to get their seat reserved.

It was a usual day just before the TCS campus recruitment. I was in the class with my fellow batchmates. We've been called for an aptitude preparation test in a computer lab. It was a multiple choice aptitude test paper.

I was looking for her only for the whole time but she wasn't in sight. I thought perhaps due to limited sitting capacity, section-2 students were sitting in some other Lab.

We completed our test and then got shifted to the closed auditorium for bunch of lectures related to upcoming campus recruitment.

I wasn't able to find her there too. She may be hiding from me because I commented on her suit last day. But I knew that I cared for her and she would not mind that.

After a few sessions of intellectual words from different faculties, our HOD started asking for the answers we marked in the test we gave that day. He was asking like who selected A, B, C or D option for a particular question. 

In one of the question, when they asked that who marked for option 'B', I raised my hand because I was the one. It turned out to be an easy question as I saw around me. I was the only one who selected the option 'B'. This was a point of embarrassment for me. Suddenly one more hand raised up behind me and now I wasn't the only idiot who marked the simplest question wrong. 

I was relieved being the centre of attraction at that time. We finished the session soon and I went back to hostel.

At night on the same day, she messaged me,

"You didn't see me today. You were busy studying the whole day. :(", she said in complaining tone.

"Ulta Chor Kotwal Ko Daantey (the pot is calling the kettle black). I was looking for you the whole day.", I wrote while thinking that she is messing with me.

"I wore this dress today to make you feel better and you didn't even meet me", she sent a pic of her while messaging me.

She was wearing a big long sleeves Pakistani style shaded green suit. She wore that suit because I was happy with that sleeveless suit of her she was wearing the last day.

She was all trying to do things for me, making me feel comfortable, doing this and that for me. I knew she loves me too otherwise who does that someone.

"You were looking great today but I don't say that you wear this long sleeves suit only. It was just that sleeveless suit was not a proper fit from upper side so I told you not to wear that again.", I clarified that I'm not a narrow minded person.

She ignored discussing this further and wrote,

"You know it was me who raised the hand in that question to give you company there. :)", she was smiling.

I got filled up with lots of love after knowing her sweet gesture of care for me. I regretted that I didn't meet her today.

"I love you more than anything else. You're such a cutie pie.", I wrote my heart out.

She never directly said that she loves me and this time too,

"Let's sleep, Gourav. And keep reading the subject books for TCS. Goodnight.", she closed the scene for today.

I was only focusing on TCS at that time and not on her much. I thought she finally felt my love and now she became more open about her love for me. I was in the feeling of contentment that I'll take care of the things after TCS and that's why I was taking the gestures of her love lightly.

Love Nowhere (20)

On one of the day before the TCS campus, final year students of all the branches were called to the closed auditorium. There were many things going on in college to prepare for the TCS recruitment.

Faculties were giving instructions on how the recruitment will be done by TCS. We got to know that there will be an aptitude and email writing test in the first phase. Every student who clears the phase-1 would appear for a Technical and a HR interview round in the second phase.

As per the TCS recruitment guidelines, top 5 students from every branch would be exempted from giving the aptitude test and they would directly be giving the email writing test in the phase-1. I already knew that I'm in the top five students in my class.

They called top five students of every branch on the stage one by one by their name. I saw that she was the most happy seeing me going on the stage. 

After this session at the closed auditorium, college time was off so I headed towards the hostel. I saw Vina outside the Training & Placement Cell cabin. She was in a printed sleeveless suit.

"Where were you? I was trying to call you but you didn't pickup and then you were out of coverage area", she was saying that like she has all the rights over me. I liked that a lot.

I checked my cellphone. There was missed call from her. I thanked God that I saw her there in college otherwise I would be going back to hostel.

"I had some work here from TPA(Training and Placement Associate). I told Ayesha to go. I thought I would call you and you would be with me here.", she continued.

She let Ayesha go back to home so that she could spent some time alone with me.

"What are you thinking?", she tapped me.

"What work do you have with TPA, girl?", I smiled while saying.

"I had some formalities left related to the campus. TPA told me to meet in his office after the closed audi session. So I thought you should be with me."

That TPA guy didn't have a good sight over girls. Everyone knew that.

We went inside his office. He was there on desk. As we reached him, he got a call and he told us to wait over a sofa until he comes back.

We were there sitting inside his office. This moment we didn't have much words to talk. I was looking at her and she was looking at me. There was no one else and I wanted to hold her hand. We both were at the opposite corner of that three seater sofa. I saw much of the love inside her eyes for me. I wanted to hug and kiss her on her forehead. But before I crossed my fingers with her's, TPA came back.

I stood there and he started doing formalities she left with related to TCS campus. The suit she wore that day was sleeveless and not a proper fit. I catched TPA having the dark eye on her. 

"I didn't like your dress today.", I told her having an angered face after coming out of the office.

"Why? What's wrong with this suit?", she chuckled.

"It doesn't fit you properly. That TPA was looking badly at you. I didn't like that. ", I said in a caring tone.

"You care too much." 

She didn't look happy with my comment over her suit. We went to the bus stop and I came back to hostel after her bus left. Perhaps I was being over possessive for her or I was caring for her, I knew only one thing that I loved her from the bottom of my heart.

Love Nowhere (19)

           I used to express my feelings for her on regular basis by using emojis while chatting or saying her the three magical words. I always tried to know her feelings for me too.

           She always ended up things like "You know everything, Gourav" and I'm like, "I want to listen it from you."

We used to talk a lot on WhatsApp those days. One day we started talking at around 9 PM and went on talking till 4 AM in morning.

During chatting on WhatsApp, she sent me a bollywood song clip,

"What is this clip?", I said.

"Watch this. This will tell you what I think about you.", she said while smiling.

I was curious but the internet was really slow. I asked for a hotspot to a friend in Hostel,

"You finished your data while talking to girls.", he said with a crooked smile and started his WiFi hotspot.

The video was downloaded now and the song was,

"Uff Mere Dil Mein Thodi Khaali Si Jagah Thi,

Uff Tune Aake Bin Kiraye Yeh Jagah Li,

Kuchh Keh Bhi Naa Saki, Ye Kaisi Bebasi,

Yun Chupke Chupke Aaya Bin Bulaya Mehmaan,

Humko Naa Khabar Kab Kaise Aaya Vo,

Dil Se Khus-Fus Kya Farmaya Vo."

I listened to this. I listened to this clip again and again. She was waiting for my reply there. 

She finally felt my love. I can't express how extremely happy I was at that time. She expressed her feelings for me through this song.

There were only 15 more days to go for TCS campus recruitment so I thought we should focus on TCS before anything.

"I would comment on this after TCS campus recruitment.", I replied while hiding a mountain of happiness inside me.

"Okay. We'll focus on TCS only.", she said.

This was the time to celebrate. But one of the decisions which I regretted later. 

Love Nowhere (18)

That night I wasn't able to sleep. This was the first time we spent some time together and I was feeling like I could spent my whole life like this only. 

The other day I saw her in college from a distance. She was in that classic blue suit sitting on stairs with a guy. It was Saturday. Yes and we do not have classes on Saturday. "Then what was she doing here?", I questioned to myself.

I wanted to go to her and ask her the same. I had a complete round out of the college and stepped inside from the place where she was sitting on.

She was busy studying some figures. The guy with her was from her class, sweet dog. I shouldn't say that but I can't help it.

"Hey Vidhi !", I tried to be calm.

And then I saw her face out of the books hidden under tresses. It was just like a moon rising over the clouds.

She said, "Hi", surprisingly.

"Preparing for TCS, Hnn", I taunted while looking at the guy. I almost sat there while saying this. 

How could I leave her alone now with some guy? 

They were doing some reasoning puzzles that I never saw before.

"Would you try this?", she put the notebook in my hand.

Oh ! I can try anything for you, my dear.

It was simple circle puzzle but I never did it before. I tried and almost solved it. She was smiling at me now.

It should be me you always study. I left her then and went back to hostel. I made my point and I was happy.

Love Nowhere(17)

                 The very next day I met her and of course, Ayesha was with her. I still remember she wore that printed yellow suit that day. She was looking like a soft and sweet angel in disguise.

We took some books and started studying in the college library. It was a dream come true for me. I waited a lot to spent time with her. Well even for the study, we were hanging out together.

                   Ayesha didn't come to do the study at all and she was roaming here and there. Suddenly she came from somewhere and pointed towards a guy sitting at some distance to us.

She said,

"That Gajju wants to do friendship with you." She was definitely looking at her and not me if you misunderstood.

                 We both were a little shocked about whats happening. After checking out our questioning faces,

she continued,

"Actually he comes in my bus daily. That's only why I know him and we had a little talk someday."

              I tilted my face towards Vina as she wanted to say something, and

she started,

"This guy follows me everywhere in college and I just ignore him. You two just do the same and concentrate here."

            I was angry and wanted to reply that guy, but I as observed him, he was really a gym going guy with whom a thin guy should never argue. But still I wanted to get up and  before that Vina stood up,

"Let's go someplace else"

and touched my hand while saying this.

         I had left no words to say, no things to do in the world other than following her, wherever she goes.

        We were finding a peaceful place to sit and study. We requested to a college Lab Assistant and sat in a Chemistry Lab on some stools around a table. I gestured Vina to come and sit on a stool near me but Vina sat just in front and Ayesha was sitting on the side. Maybe she did not saw me gesturing or she just ignored that too.

         Now, Ayesha knew how I like Vina and very much about the chemistry between us. I don't know if she thought about that but she left us alone and told,

"I'm going to meet a friend and will come by half an hour." She was smiling while going.

         Vina who was sitting in front stood up and sat just nearby me after Ayesha left. I was feeling a positive change in her behaviour with me. I was getting a feeling of her feelings for me. The Chemistry Lab is the eyewitness of a increasing chemistry between us. It was a great time together. 

Love Nowhere(16)

Many times I asked her to give me her picture, but she never gave me one. It always showed that still, she didn't believe me. 

On the last day of training, she clicked some pics with her batch mates and her teachers. She sent me those pics without notice. I was happy that now I'm nearer to her.

After industrial training, we spent some time at home and then came back to join the next semester.

It was our 7th semester in which our campus placement companies start to come. I knew that first company will be TCS in which top 5 candidates from every branch will not need to give the aptitude test. And so I was eagerly waiting for sixth-semester results to properly plan for TCS campus. During this time, I talked with Vina many times on call. 

Preparation of aptitude was still going on and the one-day sixth-semester result announced. I scored well, but still, I didn't know that I'm in top five in my branch or not. I contacted in college TPO cell many times and after some time, I got a call from our TPO coordinator Pulkit sir,

"Hello, Pulkit here. Gourav, you are not in top five."

I was shocked because I was not expecting this. I replied,

                        "Then who is on 5th position?"
"It's you."

It was me. They were making fun. I thanked him and disconnected the call.

Now, I was confirmed that I do not need to attend and clear the aptitude test. So I became busy with my verbal test and interview preparations.

I talked with Vina about the preparation. I messaged her,

"We should start our preparations for TCS in a systematic way."

I believed that if she will say, yes we can crack TCS then I will definitely get selected. Its my trust for her. Trust is the basic element of love. :P

She replied,

"Of course, we need to read all important subjects books thoroughly." 

I was lazy in reading subject books. It was not true that I don't like reading books, but it was also not true that I do like reading semester subjects books.

"I think we should search for important material from these subjects on to the internet." I told her.

a lazy mind thinks very fast to be lazy. :P

"No, you will have to read all three important books completely."

a woman is a big reason behind a working man. :P Man's are lazy.

"But I can't read the whole book alone because I will have a lot of doubts which I can't discuss with you on Whatsapp."

"But as you are into the hostel. How can we study together? :P"

What else was I waiting for? I have all the solutions to be with you.

 "Let's come to college tomorrow. We will get books from the library and then will study there."

"Hmm. Okay. I will talk to Ayesha to come with me. :)"

"Okay. Drop me a  message after you decide."    

I was okay if she is coming with Ayesha. We were meeting to do study, nothing else. LOL                       

Positivity: An art

Money attracts money. Knowledge demands more knowledge. And so the negativity & positivity.  You attracts the thing you have in your mind. 

           It's an art to find positive in every happening either good or bad of life. And everyone needs to learn it.

          Every happening in life consist of a positive and a negative side. Train your mind to focus only on positive one. Of course, This wouldn't change the happening but It would definitely motivate you. it would lead you to try it again. Trying and improving are the parents of success.

        Being positive you would be happy in life. And happiness is ultimate need of human creature.

Does God exist?

Hello dear, 

I really don't know,  if God does exist or not,  but I could give you a thought for mind. 

          If you want to get out of our galaxy Milky Way, you would need to travel 10,000 light years for that. The first thing is you can't travel with the speed of light.
         Secondly, even if you are able to do so, it is 20,000 light years or just years to come back to earth and tell about the things out there. A human can't live that long.
         If you can't even go out of your galaxy, there are trillions of galaxies out there. You should believe that this is not something simple and there is a power behind it. Not a creature like God that we People worship. It's unknown but definitely not like we think. This is just a thought of mine. We can say God exists.

        But now, There is another concept that if you would travel with the speed of light, your age would become just a number.
        And in that case, you could come back to earth after 20,000 years with thousands of your grandchildren, but after such a huge time, everyone would forget you that you people had sent him outside the galaxy. You would call him and his children as Aliens. ;) In this thought, you may decide that God doesn't exist.

Love Nowhere(15)

                                         

During her industrial training, she was doing her IT project and I was also doing the same here at my place. I thought I should view her project so that I could get some more ideas for mine. 

I opened Whatsapp and messaged her,

                    "How about your project? How is going?"

She was not online, but she came online within 2 minutes after delivery of my message,

"Working on it. How about yours? :)"

                     "Same here. Can you show me your project? I wanna get some ideas for my project."

"Yeah. You can see this after completion. Ok?"

I tried two more times to get her project, but she refused to give me. She didn't believe me, nothing could be bad than this. :( After that time, I never asked for her project. I have a lot of self-respect. I didn't talk with her the whole day.

Next day, I was going for dinner with my hostel buddies, and she called me,

"Hello Gourav!"

                             "Hmm. Say."

I was still angry with her.

"You didn't come online today. I was waiting for you."

                             "Really? Why?"

I was talking with very low voice. She sensed something,

"Are you okay?"

                           "Yeah. I'm. Why were you waiting for me?"

"I have something to tell you."

This time I wasn't really excited. 

                             "Hmm. Say."

"Actually when I was attending my training class today at Tata CMC. At the end of the training class, I got his message, that brother-cum-uncle, that devil."

                             "Ohh. What was inside the message?"

         Now I was little serious.

"He messaged me that I'm standing outside your training class to pick you up to home. I got scared and didn't come outside even after all the students left out the training center. After some time, I slowly came outside,  picked up the city bus and reached home. "

                             "Hmm. It's an indication that we should do something quickly."

"Hmm. I'm very afraid of him."

                             "I told you that you must inform your mom before anything bad happens."

"Hmm. Let's see."

                             "Hmm. "

I told her two more times that you should tell your mom about the whole incident, but she didn't do that.  I really don't know why? :P

I also told that give me contact number of that person and I'll talk to him. But she refused to do that too. 

Her landlord kid Sahil was very nice and sweet. One day, her aunt didn't come home in evening. She was late. Only Vina and Sahil were at home. They both were hungry. Sahil took her to the nearby restaurant. 

One day Vina was talking with me and Sahil was near to her.
He said, "Are you talking to you boyfriend?" She just laughed.

Sahil also shared that he likes a girl in his class. She has her fb id too in such a small age.
When Vina told about me to Sahil that I could hack Facebook ID's. He insisted to her to tell me to hack his crush ID. And I became a contract Facebook ID hacker without notice. :D

Love Nowhere(14)

         Her industrial training was going good. But one day, she messaged me,

 "Call me immediately."

         I was always ready to call her and talk to her, but her sudden message was also showing that there is something wrong. 

         I remember,  it was my second ever call to her after when 5th semester exam result had declared. I called her, her voice was straightforward,

 "Hello Gourav"

                     "Ya Vina, say, why did you message me to call you?"

    But Inside I was like '' Thank you for that most beautiful message of all time :p '' 

 "Actually whatever I'm going to say to you wasn't possible via messages."

    I was like, Really? So finally you started loving me. And,  I thought I would behave like I'm no more interested or I don't love you that much now. 

                      "Ya say." (calm voice,  happiness inside) 

 "Actually as you know that I'm living with an aunt who has a girls hostel here."

  I was like, So where is my love? I don't love your aunt. :P

                      "Yes, I know. So?" (calm voice, confusion inside) 

 "Actually, that brother, I call him brother, because his age is not that much that  I could call him uncle. He is the husband of our aunt. He is messaging me from  past 2-3 days on Whatsapp like 'If you don't like that food at home, I could take you out for lunch' or 'We should go to watch a movie together. We will  make fun.' and many other messages, I will forward you later on Whatsapp."

                                "How did he get your number?"

 "I don't know. Aunt has my contact number., maybe by that way."

                                "Only messages? Is he doing anything else at home? You both are living in the same house. How could you live with that Devil there?"

 "In morning, evening, and night, Aunt stays at home. So at that time there is no worry. And in noon, I go for my training, aunt also goes for her work, Sahil goes to school and that crap to his way. No one at home."

                       "Who's Sahil?"

 "Son of aunt. 9-year-old."

                       "Hmm. Block him on Whatsapp. And you should share it with  you Mom. Because this is a sensitive case. There are still 15 days left in your training."

 "No. This is not a big problem yet. I stopped to reply his messages now."

I took her mom's number in case of any uneven incident. I also offered her that I could come to Indore to meet her but she denied and said that she would call if she would need me. 

                       "Hmm. What else? Everything is alright?"

 "Yeah. All good. How about yours?"

                       "Living without you. Think yourself, How should I be?"

 "Hehe. You are mad."

                       "Yeah, mad for you."

           I never talked with her like I did today on call. This time I was more open to her. She shared something exclusively with me and it gave me immense pleasure of my importance to her.